single life.

i would like to start off by saying i do not have the crazy. i am a normal, 23 year old girl trying to figure out what things mean. and this is my story.

i went out one night with a friend. we went to a club. we danced. (obviously). two stepping, wobbling, dougieing etc. i had some drinks in me, i won't lie, but just a couple...no signs of Katricia.

saw a guy dancing with some friends. this is one thing i find extremely attractive...a guy who isn't afraid to dance. so, me and my friend went up and started dancing with him. (this friend of mine is really good about just going up to people, she doesn't care what they think, this is a good type of friend to have when you are single).

dancing boy asked me to two step. i said yes. (i had learned to two step the night before with another dude, we will call him 'abercrombie'. cause, who wears abercrombie graphic tees these days?). anyways. i am not the best two stepper. but me and dancing dude had a good time.

after the song was over, we went separate ways. kept running into each other the rest of the night, danced a couple more times. started talking. ended the night with him giving me his card...which i put in my back pocket and went our separate ways. ran in to abercrombie on the way out. mistake.

but then i left with dancing dudes name and number in the back of my pocket. so the curiosity got the best of me, and i found him on facebook. he seemed like a decent guy, so i added him.

we started chatting and stuff, and met back up the following weekend at the club. we danced some more. it was still fun. then the next day we hung out. i guess that is what you call a date. when i realized that, i went into freak out mode. i don't know what to do on dates?! is that what i just did? we went out to dinner, played wii and watched a movie...i guess, yes, that counts as a date.

then we kept texting/talking etc., and went to a thunder game. it was still fun but i am still not sure what i think about this dude. in the past, i have started dating guys so fast into realizing i liked them...and that didn't really work out. I think that now i am out of college, the pressure is off a little. i am now working, don't have all the time in the world to hang out with someone else and don't live 5 minutes from everyone. dating is something you kinda just do when you are my age i suppose, which i am learning. Living in a new place with people who are 30 and still single has made me realize that i am not weird for not being married at 23.

and now that i am going on dates with someone, (so that is "dating", right?) i think i am not ready for a relationship. i like being single. i like doing whatever i want whenever i want it. yes, i do miss someone to cuddle with on the couch and someone to kiss, but i still am trying to figure out what i want in someone else and i don't really know how to date, but i guess i am figuring it out. I want to take this time to do a really good job at work, and to further my career and to become a strong women who doesn't NEED a man. I will have the rest of my life with someone, and i don't want to rush that. i want to make sure that whoever i spend the rest of my life is someone i WANT to spend the rest of my life with..i want it to be my best friend. and that is going to take time, and i am learning to be okay with that.

(i would like to note that i wrote this while watching the bachelor. those girls have the crazy.)