good bye 2008.

2008 was an interesting year. 

i hope 2009 is better.

while i had a lot of fun in 2008-i also went through a lot, and I am ready for something new. 

i am ready to be happy again. with myself. and with Jesus. 

the end of this year has made me realize a lot. and i will just say this.

be happy with what you have, because you never know when it will be taken away. 

come on 2009--lets have fun.

p.s. new years is the most over rated holiday ever. but if you are wanting to sit around in your sweats with me, in the house i am sitting at. let me know. 

growing up, Christmas style.

so, i hope everyone's Christmas was splendid. it went by so fast-don't you remember when you couldn't wait for the day santa came? It killed you to do anything, because all you could think about was what you were getting for Christmas. I was known as the "snooper" in my family. but it seems like there was not even time to snoop this year. maybe it was because i had nothing good on my list, so i wasn't expecting anything good, but i got plenty of great gifts. the theme of this year was growing up. on of my favorite gifts were these. my very own set of mixing bowls. i also got some measuring cups and spoons, cook book, and a new cute coat. 

then i watched wall-e. advice, if you are feeling lonely, don't watch this movie. it will make you more depressed then you were before you started it. It was all about love. that is a touchy subject with me right now, and i choose not to post that part of my life for the world to see, but trust me, only watch if you are secure with your life. then my sister got the flu. sick. nasty. 

but Christmas doesn't feel the same as it used to. i think it is because we are growing up. is this just me or does everyone feel this way?

sometimes. i like to cry.

this break has been well.. in one word. mopey. 

lots of things are changing in my life, and they all come as a shock to me. i thought i had my life figured out, and then, i realize, i don't. at all. i want a good internship this summer, but it isn't going to just come to me. i have to work for it. right? i look at some peoples lives and they just seem to work out-well you people-beware. because it will all come tumbling down soon. 

but i am learning i must accept my life as it is. because there is nothing i can do to change it. 

for example the weather. its so cold out. there isn't anything i can do about it except bundle up and live.

so my advice for everyone-

bundle up and live. 

and stay warm. 

sweet purple nikes.

so i have been christmas shopping the past couple of days. i got a new christmas outfit, and some presents. and then i came along these.

i have been wanting a pair of sweet purple nikes for a long time now. and i came across these on sale, and so i decided to buy myself a little christmas gift. i deserve it...right? i can't wait to wear them to all k-state sporting events. thats about all i have done the past couple of days. tomorrow i get to help my grandma set up her new imac. i know. awesome. its beautiful. 

thats all i got for you. 

my first post.

well. i gave in. i got a gmail account and a blog. 

i can't promise you it will be good, mostly it will just show you that i am going to be doing random things this break to stay busy. today i finished my first semester of junior year of college. a year from now, i will have one semester left. time flies right? i don't know what i will be doing in a year from now. i have ideas of what i want but slowly i am learning i have no control over them. if you would have asked me a year ago today where i thought i would be, i would say in my room. yet this is not true. i have been kicked out of my room, and moved into my little sisters room. this is okay for me. hopefully in a year from now, i will be trying to find an apartment to live in while i start working in the real world. who knows who it will be with, maybe by myself. 

anyways. 2008 is almost over and i am so glad. it was not a good year. but i am going to try to end the year on a high note, and not think about things and just look forward to who and what is to come in the future. this is what you can expect out of this blog:

pictures of things i will bake over break.

sarcastic and bitter remarks at things.

and nothing really that important to read. i can assure you this blog will be one of the less funny ones you will read. if anyone reads it.

anyways. i don't know how this whole blog thing will work out, but if you're lucky, i will update it once in a while. i honestly just did it because it was something to do to keep my mind off the past couple of weeks. 

laundry calls.