doctors

remember that one time i got food poisoning and the bill was so expensive?

it was then when i decided doctors are over rated. yeah sure, i probably would have been found dead on my couch if i didn't go..but that is besides the point.

then i couldn't hear out of both of my ears ...so i gave in and went to the minute clinic. they misdiagnosed me.

so then i gave in a week later and went to the real doctor and they fixed my ears. but still, it was expensive.

so now. i have been sick for a week..and i refuse to go to the doctor. stubborn? yes. miserable? absolutely. but they aren't taking my money.

timeline of being sick:

last thursday: woke up at 8:20. slept through both my alarms. throat killing me. decided i must be getting sick. went home from work early and slept.

last friday: still sick. didn't stay out late and partied... tried to get better, throat still killing me.

saturday: woke up feeling slightly better, but not 100%. went to a wedding. danced too much.

sunday: woke up with no voice. scared little kids at church with my lack of voice. slept most of the day

monday: went to work. no voice still. people were all like "why are you here? go home!" but i didn't. i hate missing work, i feel like i am letting people down. had emotional breakdown when i got home not about just being sick, but about my life mom made me stay home the next day

tuesday: didn't get out of bed until 5pm. (seriously)

wednesday: went to work, thought i was feeling up to it. lies. came home early and slept. and now my ears are starting to hurt. ahhh

which leads me to right now. here i am. my nose is all dry. my trashcan is all full of kleenex and i have large amounts of dayquil/nyquil on me at all times.

hopefully it is almost over. and maybe next time i won't be so stubborn and go to the doctor at the first sign of sickness.

such is my life. jealous?

cheers to good friends.

things i am learning.

• its getting closer and closer to may, which means graduation, and i still am not sure what i want to do with my life...which is going to kick me in the butt.

• its getting closer and closer to may yet it is still SO COLD outside. and i am sick of it. and it puts me in a bad mood.

• i have had a mild case of senioritis for about 3 years and now it is getting bad. i don't know if i will try to cure it...nope i won't. which will probably contribute to me being kicked in the butt like number 1.

• senior year is all about memories. I don't care if i spend all my money or spend all my time on facebook- it is all about the people you spend your time with..right? when else can you just drive to oklahoma to see kstate play on a saturday, and spend the whole day in a car with three of your favorite guys in the world. when you work, you just can't do that.

• it really is all about the people in your life. and i have great people in my life. i love my friends, i really do. If God has blessed me in one part of my life consistently, it is with great friends. high school friends, super. and college friends, great. they are there for you when you want to cry, or have a dance party, or a venting session.

• sororities are good things. if you ever want a group of girls on your side of an issue, they will be. you don't even have to ask. they will just be on your side and make you feel like you are the best person in the world.

• the only thing i know about where i want to be after i graduate is not in kansas. so come visit where ever i end up.

ok bloggers. thanks for reading and learning.

dear fall, where did you go?

fall.

you are supposed to come in september and leave in december

but you came and went so fast, i didn't get to enjoy you.

winter, you are not welcome this early. so please kindly depart until later...

and now my roommate just told me it was snowing. ahhh.

but i bought some sassy boots. so i guess that makes somethings better.

ok, i will leave you with this. a new song from BSB. its just funny.

but kinda catchy? sure.

sometimes. i like to cry.

this break has been well.. in one word. mopey. 

lots of things are changing in my life, and they all come as a shock to me. i thought i had my life figured out, and then, i realize, i don't. at all. i want a good internship this summer, but it isn't going to just come to me. i have to work for it. right? i look at some peoples lives and they just seem to work out-well you people-beware. because it will all come tumbling down soon. 

but i am learning i must accept my life as it is. because there is nothing i can do to change it. 

for example the weather. its so cold out. there isn't anything i can do about it except bundle up and live.

so my advice for everyone-

bundle up and live. 

and stay warm.