there went college.

so its my last friday of my college career. and i have not had class on fridays all year. yet i am sitting in the library, surrounded by finance notes and getting more and more upset at them. because i don't like them, i don't think like them, and its making me mad.

i am about to have a break down in the middle of hale for the following reasons.

• i don't get finance, and if i don't get it, i will have to retake it and prolong graduation.

• people are leaving me. going to bigger and better things, kamp, africa, life etc.

• the thing i have been talking about all year, graduation, is next week. WHAT? its finally here and I am still lost.

• not only am i lost, but i am just now realizing i am also out of money.

its just a weird time. i don't know how to explain my feelings. i am so happy for my friend and their summer plans, but im still sad that i won't see them for months. maybe i will just live in my car and go visit them.

i guess i am going out in style here in Hale.

but i have loved college, and i don't think it has fully hit me how much i am going to miss it.