we survived.

friends. the semester is over.

there were times when the dark cloud of doom was so dark, i didn't think this day would come.

but the dark cloud has moved on and passed and it feels great.

i rewarded myself with a cruise with my fellow kappa sisters. which was so much fun.

besides the fact that we almost didn't make it.

but i did get sunburnt on only the left side of my body. typical.

and now tomorrow is Christmas Eve. doesn't feel like it.

remember when Christmas never seemed to come fast enough?

now its like. oh no, its christmas eve and i have nothing to give people.

i miss that feeling of waiting for Christmas. it must be me getting old.

i still have no clue where i will be coming from a year from now, but i won't be home coming downstairs for christmas. i will be coming from somewhere else. I decided i can't move back home after graduation. not possible.

goal for break. get stuff ready to send out to people that will hire me.

wish me luck.

merry christmas friends, i hope its great.

LOVE

ah. hurting.

this weekend i went to the lake, which is one place i love. i don't go down much because it just never works out, so this weekend i did. and here is what happened.

i DID put on sunscreen, and fell asleep on the boat (which is my favorite place in the WORLD to take a nap, by the way) and then i noticed i was a little red. which by morning became a LOT red. and now i can't bend over, sit down or slap my leg* without it hurting.

*this i learned by unfortunate events on which i slapped my leg when i was mad.

i took a shot* with a live minnow in it. i say shot* because i didn't have my ID so it was just a shot of Dr Pepper, but my dad said that if i did it, i would get a free tshirt, so i had to. (i am poor a free tshirt is golden in my world). it was alive when i took it, and hopefully it died somewhere in my body. i don't like to think about it too much.

i have learned over the past month that i.

a. don't like sales,

b. have little panic attacks and need to learn to calm down (which didn't use to happen)

c. put a lot of pressure on myself

d. try to do everything everyone asks of me, and it gets overwhelming

e. can't work for my dad

while i am sure i will gain a lot from figuring these things out, it sucks learning them about myself. i have been very busy and not had a quiet day to just rest in a long time. this is why i am excited for school.

but what i am more excited for is D.C. which is soon. and i CAN'T FREAKING WAIT. just have to get through this week of stress factory finals in my cooking class. wish me luck.