my life is soon coming to what i had been expecting all year long. graduation.
and no, i still don't know what i am doing. hence the title of this post. it's complicated.
it's complicated when people ask me what i am doing in may
it's complicated when people ask me what i want out of my life
it's complicated when you change your mind about things every hour and logic is different then feelings....
and
it's complicated to explain that i don't want to be in kansas city where my friends and family are.
for my birthday, i got a Garmin. this is part of the adventure--to go somewhere where i will actually need to use it, and not just use it because i have it (like i did tonight when i drove from KC to Manhattan. i can drive that with my eyes closed, but i love using new things!) and i do have this peace about my future, like i know God has something planned for me and he is going to show me so soon.
there are just so many things about this year that i didn't see coming and that have helped me understand myself a little more. and the fact that in one year, i will be in a completely different spot in my life, scares me--but one year ago i was in a whole different spot too and i'm fine.
so i will just keep living in this complicated life until things start to sort out.
and i will leave you with this. because it is simple. and not complicated.
