"bahhhhhhhh"
and i will have to say, this is my response to any question you give me. how can i sit in the library all day, and not feel like i get one thing accomplished.
i think i put it the best last week, when i came home and just fell face first onto the couch and laid there. with my face in the couch, rainboots on, and backpack still on my back.
or maybe like today.
when i went to make soup and on the directions it said "one can soup, one can milk" and i called my mom and said, "milk comes in cart
ons, i don't understand".
there comes a point in the day, where all i can do is shut down, and it is coming earlier in the day every day. I dont know how i am going to have a real job, and be sane. i don't know how my mom raised 4 kids, while working, and being singl
e, and she is still WALKING! i am rethinking the number of kids i want....six is looking tough.
then there is the looming cloud of future that is coming closer with every blink of my eye. i have 0 clue of where i will be sitting one year from now. its starting to get to me.
its hard to stay mentally positive right now, so be praying for me.
on another note, i found this in my random reading on the internet--and i want to do this for a living. create fun and inventive things like this.
its kinda small. but i get lost in photoshop, or indesign or illustrator for hours. i could sit and try to create things all day and be fine. does this mean that this is my passion? I am still not convinced, or have enough confidence to look for a job like it. this comes back full circle to the cloud of doom that i mentioned earlier.
such is life...right?
