the end is near?

well, three weeks left of "summer" -aka when i move back to manhattan. and i can't wait. i miss that place.

i miss being close to all my friends, i miss being able to be on my own time and not have to worry about anyone else. i miss not having to drive 10 minutes to see someone. and all this talk about senior year is strange. i will go to my last first day of school this year. and its strange to think that in a year from now, i have 0% of an idea as to where i will be. i think God will open doors that i didn't think he would open for me, and he will give me a place to live and enough money to eat and such. and for this i am excited, because of the mystery of it all. but i am also scared that i will be alone? which is strange but recently it has been in the back of my mind. i thought that about this summer, and at times i have been alone-but i have also had some good times with friends, old and new. there are so many opportunities out there in the world, and if you would have asked me last summer where I thought i would be this summer i would have said lots of things that are definitely not the case.

i guess what i am kinda learning this summer is there is no reason to think about what you are missing out on, or what is to come in the next months, but live in the moments you have now, because who knows if those moments you dream about in the future will ever be true.

and keep your options open, especially in this economy.

on a different note, if anyone needs a date to the fray concert-i can clear my calendar...