life after kearney

well. the day is here. My official last day in Manhattan as a resident. (I plan on visiting.. so it is not my last day here ever..).

so you may ask..what does tricia do on her last day in Manhattan? Well, I am currently sitting at Radinas. Reading and writing this thing. Then I will go home, continue to pack/ clean and then.. who knows what. Haha. Not too exciting right?

but my life is about to change..

I am about to move in to a new apartment, in a place that is semi foreign to me. I am then going to start a job I know little about what I will be doing. Although I did get more of a glimpse this week as I talked to last years intern. And I am excited. I will revert back to my high school life where I had to get up early, shower and spend the whole day in one place, but I think it will be good. A struggle at first, working for 8 hours a day, but also a good change. Don't get me wrong, I loved college, and the freedom I had, and the going to class only a couple hours a day..(when I went to class) but I need to grow up. I need to figure out who I am, what God has placed me on this earth for, and how to show his love to people.

and I trust that this is exactly where God wants me to be. If you would have asked me 3 months ago, I would tell you there is no way I would be in Kansas City after I graduated, but, here I am..that is where I am going. and I feel at peace about it, because I know that things wouldn't have fallen into place like they have been if God wasn't in control, and every day, I let him be a little bit more in control. He knows what he is doing, I need to trust in him more.

but it is still weird, I feel like I should be thinking about what books I need to buy, what recruitment clothes I need, and preparing myself for recruitment itself, but I don't! I have moved on.

So as I sit in Radinas, proudly wearing my ALUMNI shirt, it hits me.. that's what I am, and alum, and I am ready for the next part of my life.

its 2010.

well the new year has come. and it has been full of exciting times. for example this:

that is crazy! i love it.

but i am back in manhattan, sitting in the new radinas, which is quite cozy, but a little disappointing cause they don't serve sandwiches yet. i told myself i would start applying for jobs, but i haven't done that yet. not shocking.

but being back in manhattan is so great, except for the lack of friends here, but its ok. because i am enjoying the peacefulness. i hope to make it to colorado on thursday, but surprise there is going to be 8 inches of snow on wednesday. upsetting.

but i am enjoying my last break. and can't believe that i have made it to 2010. it seems like just last week we were all freaking out about Y2K!

i hope this year will bring a great adventure (insert steven curtis chapman song..i know you are starting to sing it in your head) and a new life.

love from radinas on a very chili day.

little.

oh hey.

went to chicago, loved it. love the time with my mom, never been on a trip just the two of us. loved the shopping, now wish it was cold so i could wear my new clothes.

moved to manhattan, love it. i just couldn't help but smile today when i was walking around this little town. my sisters/dad helped me move in. they said my room was little, but it works for me, really well actually. i built a desk and chair today (from a kit) all by myself. and it is still standing. i love putting things together like that, i used to do it with my dad-and it is something i miss.

only downside to manhattan, i have been spending lots of money on things i need, which is ok i guess, and i have no food. cause our kitchen is a storage room for construction things. i am excited for them to be done with our house so we can make it cozy and cute.

excited to see my roommates tomorrow and all the little kappas as we start work week.

i have little time left in college, and i have no clue what is going to come next. i'll keep you posted.

p.s. taylor swift and keith urban=well worth the ticket on ebay that i got for a lot cheaper then the face value.

love.

ladies and gents.

i have nothing to say. except

dear manhattan,

i miss you. i will be there in three weeks. welcome me with open arms.

dear kansas city,

you have been good to me. i am thankful for your great weather, winsteads and royals, even though you suck. and tom watson, fellow KC friend (i have met him, and have his autograph, so he is a friend-right?) i wish you would have won today, you are a great guy.

dear chicago,

see you soon. be prepared for me and deens to come, eat drink and shop until we can't move anymore.

love,

me.

the end is near?

well, three weeks left of "summer" -aka when i move back to manhattan. and i can't wait. i miss that place.

i miss being close to all my friends, i miss being able to be on my own time and not have to worry about anyone else. i miss not having to drive 10 minutes to see someone. and all this talk about senior year is strange. i will go to my last first day of school this year. and its strange to think that in a year from now, i have 0% of an idea as to where i will be. i think God will open doors that i didn't think he would open for me, and he will give me a place to live and enough money to eat and such. and for this i am excited, because of the mystery of it all. but i am also scared that i will be alone? which is strange but recently it has been in the back of my mind. i thought that about this summer, and at times i have been alone-but i have also had some good times with friends, old and new. there are so many opportunities out there in the world, and if you would have asked me last summer where I thought i would be this summer i would have said lots of things that are definitely not the case.

i guess what i am kinda learning this summer is there is no reason to think about what you are missing out on, or what is to come in the next months, but live in the moments you have now, because who knows if those moments you dream about in the future will ever be true.

and keep your options open, especially in this economy.

on a different note, if anyone needs a date to the fray concert-i can clear my calendar...

happy mothers day.

while talking to my mother on the phone in honor of her day, another witty comment from my stepdad that i felt like you faithful readers should know. 

me. (i talked about dating. thats all you need to know)

mom. well maybe you will find someone in your pastry classes this summer, a fellow baker.

rick. (yelling so i can hear it from the phone) someone who makes a lot of dough!

(Laughter for five minutes on the phone)

mom. he was very proud of that comment. 

so funny.

my last weekend in manhattan was a success, could have used a little less drama/freak outs but i only have myself to blame. now onto finals every day of the week and then summer.

dear nickel creek-how have a survived this long without you? 

love. peace. and summer.