sweet summer time.

so its summer. right? i have had a great kick off to summer-i am hoping that it is forshadowing my future. i moved into a new room at home. finally settled. went to oklahoma joes, and a the Royals game. Went shopping and ate with some Kappas and watched ace of cakes. perfect.

i am starting to sense that God has something really cool for me this summer and i am excited.

i start working tomorrow morning, getting all set up for the furniture sale. all the hard work will pay off when i go visit sister in texas this weekend. and watch a little golf tournament. lovely. *side note. if you are strong please call me, as i have some furniture to move and could use your help.

i forgot how my body says when i come home "i don't like to sleep during night so i will stay awake until 5am." this is not okay with me. i will work on it.

sorry for the lame post. but soon there will be adventures from texas. pastry school. D.C. and more.

peace out.

its that time.

well folks. ladies and gentlemen. readers. it is time for me to soon leave my abode for the past two years. as i sit here before i take my last final of junior year, i reflect on my past years living in a house full of 75 girls. I will not be retuning to live here again, which is kinda sad. but here are just a couple things i will miss about living in kappa, and somethings i wont.

things i will miss.

• left six dance parties. there is nothing better then dancing on your chair to single ladies, or britney spears with your best friends.

• always someone to play skip bo, or any other game with.

• being able to walk randomly around and find someone doing something funny, and then joining them and having a good time

• living next to cindy, who will always say something so ridiculous you can't help but laugh.

• watching 24 and then talking about it after.

• being able to wear your pj pants, rain boots and sweatshirt and then people asking you questions like "what are you wearing" and you saying "don't worry about it" and then they just laugh.

• brownies. gooey chocolate delicious brownies.

• coming home when you are really upset, and girls caring about why your so upset.

• girls in relationships* (this goes both ways) they always are there to give you advice or listen to a story

• girls not in relationships-then you can hang out and eat ice cream and cookie dough while watching You've Got Mail for 6th time this semester.

• living in a place where you never have to go to blockbuster because everyone has movies you can barrow.

• i am sure there are so much more, and i will probably come back and update as i continue to think about it.

Things I won't miss so much.

• climbing up on my bed every night-multiple times in the night because my bladder has decided to shrink.

• changing the toilet paper roll every third time i use the bathroom (you may think i am exaggerating, but i know this happens every third time i pee-even in the middle of the night, i change the roll. )

• being around girls in relationships * (told you it goes both ways) sometimes you are so happy for them, and glad they are dating but you don't want to hear about it.

• people talking very loudly about things you don't want to hear about, but have to listen because they talk in a decibel that goes through five doors.

• options for dinner and such. i won't miss the food.

• not being able to have males in my room. not that i would have had them in here anyways, it will just be nice to be able to be where ever i want to be with them.

• phone and door duty. sometimes it's just silly.

• drama. thats all that needs to be said

thats all i can think of for now, but as i said before, there are many more.

I really have loved living in Kappa the past two years, and looking back i wish i could change somethings that went on, but i know that God put me here for a reason, and I will always remember it here. There is no other time, besides a nursing home, that i will live with this many people.

i love you all and will miss you.

on to kearney....

happy mothers day.

while talking to my mother on the phone in honor of her day, another witty comment from my stepdad that i felt like you faithful readers should know. 

me. (i talked about dating. thats all you need to know)

mom. well maybe you will find someone in your pastry classes this summer, a fellow baker.

rick. (yelling so i can hear it from the phone) someone who makes a lot of dough!

(Laughter for five minutes on the phone)

mom. he was very proud of that comment. 

so funny.

my last weekend in manhattan was a success, could have used a little less drama/freak outs but i only have myself to blame. now onto finals every day of the week and then summer.

dear nickel creek-how have a survived this long without you? 

love. peace. and summer.

ambitions.

a recent conversation with my mom.

Deens: I had something really important to tell you...what was it? OH i remember, I was talking to this lady at work, and her daughter just got done with a program at JUCCO with a degree in Train conducting.

Me: yes...

Deens: I think you should look into it, everyone is retiring so they need people to start working and conducting trains.

Me. Oh well thanks, ok. You have such high ambitions for my future.

Deens: No, not like that, I just think it would be a good way for you to travel the world.

Stepdad-from the couch, YEAH-if she could get to the WORLD on a train...

Deens: Oh, well then, it would be a good way for you to see the United States and Canada.

Me: ok, well thanks, I will think about that. I don't really like trains, but I do like that striped stuff they wear..

Deens: Oh yeah so cute. Just keep that on your list for things in the future.

...what do you think-Tricia as a Train conductor?

people do change.

today i went and saw 17 again, by myself, and i realized things.

a. zac efron is really attractive.

b. people change, but they don't at the same time.

its like this. we have been talking about this lots in my philosophy class. do you think people are always themselves, or do they change depending on the situation? I think some core parts of us don't change, but over a course of years, you do change. its like this-obviously while you are in college, you arn't going to be the same person you were when you came into college as a freshman. Just think of high school, were you the same person you were as an awkward freshman? i sure hope not. same with college, people change and it is just a matter of if you change for the better and if the people you change with love you while you change, and before you change and after you change.

that is what will keep marriages in tact, and friendships still going, peoples ability to adapt to other peoples changes. and it hurts when people love you before the change and not after, but then you don't want to be around those people anyways-right?

i don't know i am just rambling but what it boils down to is, people are who they are, but they go through changes.

school is almost over, and it is a strange feeling. but i am 80% excited for the summer.

bake a cake.

well friends, i have completed my paper, on my own time, not according to the library's helpful timeline. but i do want to bake a cake like it told me to--so if you want to eat it, let me know. i may even give you the power to decide what kind of cake i make.

*UPDATE. this cake above.

this man is great. i love watching him. and watching the royals win.

on another note, my summer looks to have some trips in it, which will be exciting and give me someone/thing to look forward to. I bought my very first plane ticket all by myself last night to D.C. for the fourth of july. I am really looking forward to it. Now is the time to travel, i'm in college, I'm not tied down to anyone/thing and so i have decided to take advantage of it.

its rainy this week, and i want to play golf.

thats all.

spring madness.

it has started. it comes every year around this time. spring madness is what i like to call it, and i'm not a part of it.

which is fine, i don't think i want to be a part of it-but it is getting to me. friends getting engaged, dating, and having love interests all around them, it creates one of the loneliest feelings in the world for those not in it. it is reminding me that i am looking for things on this earth to make me happy, to fulfill my selfish desires, and the more i think about it and ponder it and talk about it, the deeper i go into loneliness. then i read this.

There are many such beliefs which must be removed-for example, that God removes a child because his mother loves him too much. That is the devil’s lie and a travesty on the true nature of God! If the devil can hinder us from taking the supreme climb and getting rid of our wrong traditional beliefs about God, he will do so. But if we will stay true to God, God will take us through an ordeal that will serve to bring us into a better knowledge of Himself.

i need to do this. obey God and trust him, knowing that he has this great love story out there for me, and when my heart is ready again, he will take me on that journey. I can't compare myself to anyone else, and I need to fully rely on God. Sometimes living in a house with 75 other women though gets to me. thats all i'm saying.